Fireman Kanan

Kanan and Fireman Garret pose for Mommy

Kanan and Fireman Garret pose for Mommy

A local Fire Department just opened today and so families eveywhere came to the gorgeous property to watch the ceremony, eat hotdogs and cotton candy, take tours, sit inside the firetrucks, experience smoke simulations and learn safety tips, as well as dress up in fireman clothes.

Kanan and I got there around 11 o’clock and endured the humid morning by keeping ourselves occupied with the excitement of the fire department. Kanan did all the above minus the food. He really enjoyed getting behind the wheel of one of the firetrucks. And during the smoke simulation, when Fireman Garret told us to get on our knees and crawl out of the house, Kanan decided to lay down in a yoga position coincidentally called “child’s pose” until we gave up our Kanan calls and I picked him up and carried him out of the “fire.” It was funny. Later I waited for 15 minutes in line with my spirited child (mother’s of spirited children understand what I’m taking about) to get a cool plastic fireman hat, but learned they ran out just two people ahead of us. We then decided to leave for lunch instead of wait in the much longer line for free hotdogs.

Here is a cute picture of Kanan. Feel free to see more through the Flickr thumbnails down below. He doesn’t look impressed, but he did enjoy himself. He just didn’t like holding poses for his silly mom and her darn camera.

Happy 4th of July!

Well, this Independence Day, Kanan and I first spent time at the beach and watching all the packing in, went on a bike ride with Kanan’s Dad and played at the park. Then after we had lunch and said goodbye, the little munckin and I jumped into the car and went up to my old stomping grounds in Upland, California to celebrate our life, liberty, and pursuit of happiness away from the madness of San Diego. Kanan slept about 45 min of the ride up which gave him enough of a rest to keep him going the rest of the day. We had a great time swimming and playing with the other little kids in my friend Lisa’s backyard.  I thought for sure Kanan would be ready for another nap around 4 or so given he slept so little, but the little guy didn’t want to go to bed until around 9 oclock! After all the fun in the sun and barbeque food, he took a bubble bath with his good friend Nolan and then got ready for bed. Here he is all decked out in his Fourth of July clothes. Thanks Great Auntie Julie for the cool shorts. They were a hit! Although Kanan wasn’t too impressed as we can see in the photo. Oh well, this stuff is mostly for our pleasure anyway, right?

All Dad, but with Mom’s “Gift” for Words

Kanan made a linguistic leap this last week in his communication. He is pure boy and just like his father in that he LOVES being outside, water, and wheels. But he just might be a chatterbox like myself. In the last update I had given a list of words he could say, but the list DOUBLED in the last week! Here is the updated list with the new words in italics. We are sooooo impressed and of course, we think our child is brilliant. Doesn’t everybody? (Winks)

Kanan’s Words

  1. Mom (mum)
  2. Dad (dada)
  3. doggy (duggy)
  4. kitty (kitty)
  5. car (cah)
  6. light (light)
  7. flower (flohwr)
  8. Yes (yuh or yah)
  9. Can I have that? (canahada?)
  10. cracker (cacka)
  11. choo-choo train (coo-coo or coo-coo chen)
  12. Grandma (Gama) 
  13. Night Night (nana)
  14. basketball (basketball).

Some words that he understands, but doesn’t use are “no,” “are you hungry?,” and “eyes.” When I read a book, I ask him “where are baby’s eyes?” and he points at baby’s eyes. It is so cool. When I ask him if he’s hungry, he will either get all excited and look toward the kitchen or even say “ya” or if not, he will just talk to me in his babytalk about something I don’t understand but is obviously not food. If we say “no” he stops and stares and then he either listens and stops or he will slowly do it while watching us in order to test if we are serious or not. The little booger!

Kanan update–14 months on May 11th!

I used to be so good at writing our updates on Kanan, but it seems 2008 has brought on a lot more changes than anyone anticipated, and this of course, keeps us busy. But so much has blossomed in the life of Kanan, I just had to share. First, he is running now. It is more like a penguin run than a bent-kneed run, but he is fast nonetheless. He loves climbing up and down stairs, so I have to constantly follow him to make sure he doesn’t fall. He does a good job. Other new milestones Kanan has reached include stacking, connecting big leggos, playing his drums regularly, turning pages and pointing at the pictures and even words, picking up large toys and carrying them everywhere, initiating peekaboo games with his favorite blankey all by himself, throwing and chasing after balls, holding the telephone to his head and then holding it directly to his mouth when he wants to talk, feeding us his finger foods, stabbing his own food with a fork or sometimes managing to pick a piece up with a spoon, putting objects into holes, trying to stand on his head (feet down….look at the picture), climbing into his own stroller to communicate that he wants to go, trying to stick his chubby feet into his shoes by himself (only to fall in the process), clicking his tongue, brushing his own teeth, and sticking objects into bigger objects. He loves going for walks in his stroller and picking flowers. He can even say “flower”! His newest and most favorite word of all time is “Cah” (car). He is obsessed with cars. It is all he wants to play with. Well that and balls, but only the bouncy ones. He can also say “light,” “kitty,” “dat?,” “duggy,” “mum,” “dad,” and a bunch of other stuff we don’t undersand but sound like real words! We go to the park often and Kanan can now slide down the slide by himself. I put him at the top and he pushes himself down and just laughs and squeels in delight until he reaches the bottom where I catch him.

Mike has finally talked Kanan into wearing sunglasses. He looks adorable in them. I wish I had a photo, but I don’t. I will try and take one soon. Mike and Kanan do a lot together. Mike takes Kanan to a gymnastics class on Mondays where Kanan gets to tumble around with other 1-year-olds. He also goes to the library on Tuesdays and listens to a story and sings songs like “Itsy Bitsy Spider” with other children and their mommys. Just call Mike “Mr. Mom.” I’m so jealous that Mike gets to see Kanan during the day like that while I am at work, but luckily, I have summers off so I will be able to join in the fun soon. Mike and Kanan will be taking a swim class for 1-year-olds in a couple of weeks so that will be exciting too. In the meantime, Kanan cools off by wading in the shallow waves at the beach or wading in the kiddie pool my sister and I have in the front driveway. Kanan LOVES water!

Kanan is a good eater. He is done with all bottles now. He stopped about a month ago. He loves his sippy cup and drinks his whole milk or water out of that. He finally figured out how to drink from a straw so that makes dinner-outings much easier, especially when we leave his sippy cup at home. He doesn’t like most vegetables though–only sometimes he will eat avacado, canned carrots, or cherry tomatos. I have to puree his vegetables and sneak it into his food via the guiding recipes of Jessica Seinfield to get him to eat them, but I continue to give him visible ones on the side in hopes he adapts. Still, compared to most mommy’s I talk to whose kids won’t eat much of anything, we count ourselves quite blessed. Kanan’s chunky thighs tell us he is doing just fine.

Overall, Kanan is growing into a big and happy little boy. Mike and I are so inlove with him, it is ridiculous. He does something new everyday.

P.S–It is Mikey’s 32nd Birthday today!!! Wish him a good one!

One Year Ago Today…

One year ago today, I didn’t sleep all night because of my contractions

I shivered violently from my fever of 102.7 from my water breaking the day before

One year ago today, our lives were changed forever.

God delivered to Mike and I by emergency c-section, a cherub angel who would put life in its proper perspective.

One year ago today, I heard my son’s first cry, shrill and angry to have left his warm home so unnaturally.

And I heard his sweet silence and calm awareness when I whispered in his ear how much I loved him.

One year ago today, my son was rushed to the NICU

and I was forced to be away from him for 24 hours while they monitored us both for an infection.

One year ago today, I eagerly listened to my family tell me stories

about what my son looked like or cried like, or slept like, or yawned like.

One year ago today, Mike had 210 photos taken of him and his new son

and of our family and friends holding him.

One year ago today, and I remember it with the same fierciness and passion

I felt in the very moments I was experiencing it.

And tomorrow, it will be one year from when I actually held him in my arms and nursed his hunger for the first time.

How much I still wish that I had experienced that gift of giving

One year ago today.

Kanan First Birthday!

birthday-cake-closeup.jpgOn March 11th he will be one, but we celebrated his birthday this Saturday. He had a great time at Chuck E Cheeses! Kanan was very excited to see all of his friends and family. The funnest part was watching him eat his chocolate cake. He sat on his Auntie Lisa’s lap and gobbled it up like he hadn’t eaten in a month. And when the entire slice was gone, he screamed and cried because he wanted more. I actually had to pull him away to get him to forget. It was so sweet. Besides the moment when he had to part with his chocolate cake, Kanan was cheerful and full of energy. We were worried that he would be ready for a nap before it was over, but the chocolate and the lights and people really charged him up. He didn’t take a nap until 4 oclock that afternoon! Then Mike and I headed off to my high school reunion. That blog will be coming soon.  Thanks everyone who came to Kanan’s first birthday party. We are really blessed to be able to share these joyful memories with you.

One question answered….maybe vacation and church will answer the next

Kanan is back from the doctors. He has a really bad ear infection. And the previous antibiotics for his cough just didn’t help it out. Hopefully the new stuff will make a difference. Poor baby! I’m so happy that we atleast know what the problem is. Now we can solve it. I like solvable problems. 🙂

 I deleted the previous post I made today. I decided that while it seemed like a good idea at the time, sharing such vulnerable thoughts about myself for all to see made me more sensitive to comments by my readers. Some were not what I was expecting or hoping for—in effect, I began to regret my decison to send out a blog update email. I suppose it was good to write out my worries and stresses, but its another to post them. Sometimes, things are better left unsaid.

 On a happier note, once Kanan got his new antibiotics and pain meds in him, he was like his old happy self again. And I broke my own rule tonight, but I just don’t care. I normally stress the importance that Kanan learn to put himself to sleep, but tonight I just couldn’t help myself. My chubby baby boy was in my arms tonight in a position that looked sooooo comfortable I wish I had a giant person to hold me in such a way. It felt so nice to just be rocking him and stroking his back. I didn’t want to put him down. So I rocked him to sleep and kept rocking and singing well past the time he went under. I could have been there all night if I were not hungry for dinner.

 Well, vacation is beginning…..finally some time to relax and yet also catch up on things that have been piling up. I’m going to church this Sunday for the first time in years….and guess what? I’m super excited about it. Can’t wait to find  a church in which I feel home.

Kanan is 9 months Old!

8-months-week-3-and-4-006.jpgWhile Kanan has been sick for the last half of this month, he is still reaching milestones and is in good spirits. He can stand without support and balance on his own for a good 5 seconds and Mike told me today that he stood by himself for a good 30 seconds last night. He is also starting to push his toys along the floor as he shuffles behind upright on his knees. (Note to self: add push toys to Kanan’s Christmas list). Just this morning he found his favorite puppet Mr. Cat and picked it up and hugged it affectionately. It was the first time I have ever seen him show affection to an inanimate object and I awed in adoration at the sight. He loves Loves LOVES his big boy baths and plays in the water every night before bed. My sister babysat Sunday night while Mike and I went to a Christmas show in Coronado Island with some family and she said that Kanan did not want to get out of the tub. She had to empty and refill it 3 times because the water turned cold. He played for an hour until his hands were so 8-months-week-3-and-4-011.jpgshriveled, she made him get out regardless of his cries.

Kanan is also getting very good and chewing his finger foods. He smacks his gums together so proudly. He is eating pieces of shredded chicken, ground beef, pasta, cheese, raisins (cut in thirds), canned fruit, cheerios, and deli meat. He has recently decided he no longer likes peas and will spit them out at the first bite. He loves food so much now, I have to make sure and prepare him a snack if I plan on having one, because if he can’t have a bite of what I’m having or if he is not eating when I’m eating, he flips! So I have to either prepare a snack that Kanan can try from my plate, or make him something also.

While we have yet to take him in for his 9-month-checkup, on our scale he weighs 21 1/2 lbs (as of a week ago), which seems to follow his typical pattern of one pound a month.

Mike and I fall deeper in love with him every day. He is such a joy to have and we are so grateful to be blessed by his playful spirit and his innocent glee for life. Watching him awe over simple things like light bulbs and carpet fuzzies has given us a new perspective on the little things we used to take for granted everyday. I recommend that everyone (if mentally and emotionally capable and financially ready of course) experience parenthood. It is by far the best thing I have ever done in my life. Life has developed a vigorous purpose that I have never once felt before. It is very fulfilling.

Click HEREfor pics. Videos for the last couple of months are still in process of uploading to the internet. Ever since I got this new camera, I’ve had problems uploading my vids to Picasa. I think the quality is too high and so it is a bigger file and therefore, too big for Picasa to handle. I may have to upload my videos to photobucket and try it that way.